I Think Gene Autry Said It Best. . .

I'm back in the saddle again
Out where a friend is a friend (thanks to Erin for her pep talk!)
Where the longhorn cattle feed (yes I'm cow-like,but not for long)
On the lowly gypsum weed
Back in the saddle again

So I'm back in the saddle-- I've been swimming for 30 minutes while the kids take their swimming lessons and I guess it must be good exercise because I'm working my way back to what I had lost before--I have one pound to go to get me back to where I was. My new goal is to continually have my weight stay below Erin's, since she won't "start over" for me in our competition. She said something about some ratio or stats or something--I dunno it was math gibberish. This week should be fairly easy to stay on target--the kids have swim lessons tues -fri so I'll swim those days and I have only one cake this week so I have no excuse to skip exercise the other days. Plus Chris is away so I will end up eating cereal or fruit for dinner most nights (I'm so bad about cooking when he's away--the kids live on grilled cheese, pancakes and hotdogs)
So things are good after a very bad few weeks. . .

Wednesday, June 3

I exercised yesterday and did well eating . . . . until dinner. Personally, I blame Chris. He had to go down to Canton to pick up something from a game store and you know what is in Canton, right?? Nacho Mama's. So we went out to dinner. And while I did resist the temptation to have a margarita (I had water), I failed at resisting the chips and salsa. And the chimichanga. And the rice. And sour cream.
So my weight was up a bit this morning. But today is a new day, and I'm getting ready to exercise so I don't think all is lost. I'll be OK. Still on track to meet my first goal of 16 pounds by our vacation.
Now if only I could get Chris to go jogging. . .

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Had a good day yesterday--forced myself to work out early in the day--knew I would only make excuses later if I didn't get it done. Did 50 minutes on the elliptical and then continued with the scrubbing of the kitchen floor--which trust me--is an upper arm workout.

What I ate:
life cereal and skim milk for breakfast
vegetable beef soup for lunch (which I spilled on Chris's iPod--oops)
egg casserole for dinner--super fattening so I only ate about 1/2 a cup and I had some watermelon
I woke during the night--actually the dumb dog woke me to go out-he's worse than a newborn--and I really needed something sweet so I went with 3 spoonfuls of sugar free cool whip

I've started a weight loss blog with some other Moms from my kids school--kind of like weight-watchers, but free and you don't have to go anywhere. I am super excited about it---not only will I have to report my weight each week, but I also have the option to bitch or celebrate or commend someone else on their efforts. I am also using google calendar with Erin, Sean, Emmy and others to keep track, now that Chris explained it to me.
I've had to revisit my goals as I am obviously not going to be able to lose 25 pounds in the next two weeks. I've pushed back my long term goal to my birthday (3/24) and reduced it to 70 pounds total lost--it sounds like a cop out but on second consideration I think 148 is a little too skinny-- 155 sounds more realistic.
So my first short term goal is 16 pounds by the time we go on vacation (7/25)
I am going out to happy hour with some friends tonight so I am conserving calories today in anticipation of that--not the "Zak" way to do things, but I'm doing it anyway.

Game. Back. On.

So Little-Miss-Perky-Poo-I-Work-Out-Every-Day-And-ALWAYS-Measure-My-Food-Like-A-Good-Little-Girl is seriously pissing me off. Mainly she's just making me feel incredibly stupid for not being weight loss motivated and failing miserably at this attempt. (A fact for which I am eternally grateful-- but I'm SO not telling HER that)
So hear this Miss Perky Poo:
Game Back On. I am in like Flynn. And if you can't handle the heat, then stay out of the kitchen. You shouldn't be in there anyway. And unlike Miss Perky who has the full force of a personal trainer behind her, is single and has no children--I'm going to do this ALL. BY. MYSELF.
Miss Perky Poo wherever you are you should be afraid. Very, very afraid.
'Cause Mama Wags is Losing it Again. And this time it's personal.

Monday, May 4, 2009

I think Erin may win.
:0(

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Thank you Mr. Paul for bringing the little push this afternoon!! 45 minutes on the elliptical--so not how I wanted to spend my evening--but I feel so good about myself right now! I'm sweaty and I smell, but I feel great!
What did I eat today??
raisin bran and skim milk
pretzel chips
a peaches and cream parfait (it's low fat--actually it's surprisingly good)
water
1/2 grilled chicken breast
Caesar salad with orzo and a little bacon--low fat dressing
steamed green beans
water

Oh Happy Day!! I'm going to be skinny!! Well, not skinny--average I'd say. I don't think I can pull off skinny.
So speaking of skinny--there's this girl in my chemistry class--I hate her. I barely know her, but yet I hate her. She EATS from the time class starts until we leave. She goes out in the hall during lab to eat because we can't have food in the lab. And you know where I'm headed with this, right?? Yeah--she's about a size 0. Her jacket today was an XXS. I didn't even know they made XXS. She (and her metabolism) can lick the sweat from my eyeballs. Which incidentally are currently sweating.
So Erin and I are "game on" for getting skinny and hot. I say "bring it" sister.
And Chris informs me that Sean and Emmy have thrown down similarly, although I wasn't aware. And I don't think Emmy needs to lose weight, but then again, I've never seen her naked. Unfortunately, after my "got into Nursing school" drunken escapade she can't say the same. Apparently I showed everyone my boobs. Sorry about that.
So I'm going to give it a few days before I weigh in. Let's say Monday for the weigh in. I'll let you know how it goes. I'm just hoping to be back to what I had lost before--I think I was at 223, I'll have to consult my mirror--that's where I write my weight.
Thanks for listening!

Monday, April 20, 2009

I had a good day today! Exercised for 47 minutes, and have eaten only diet friendly foods! I threw away the Easter candy--it was possessed by the devil anyhow--and filled my Brita water pitcher like a good little girl. I resisted the temptation to eat popcorn chicken for lunch with Sam and instead had a lean cuisine.
Ate a breakfast bar, my lean cuisine, and for dinner had one slider, one fat free hot dog, about a tablespoon of garlic olive oil pasta and corn.
I may have a weight watchers sherbet bar this evening if I feel like it.
I am very bummed that the likelihood of making my first weight loss goal (24 more pounds by the end of the school year--that's 9 weeks) is slim to none, but I'm trying not to let that get me down. I'll just have to do what I can and reevaluate goals if need be.
I stood naked in front of the mirror this morning--YUCK! if that's not incentive, I don't know what is. Chris has given his word that he will push me out of bed tomorrow morning (if need be) to exercise. The cooler thing is that he said he'd go for a run while I am exercising. This would be so much easier if he were doing it with me. I can say that because he doesn't read this blog, so I'm not creating guilt in him. It doesn't work anyway. I hope he keeps his word. All I need is a little push. I'm horribly competitive so all I need is some competition. Erin, you in?? Sean?? I'm willing to put in money. . .
So I got invited to a party given by a friend I haven't seen since high school. I'm not going to go. I want to go, but I won't. It's just too embarrassing. I wish I felt better about my appearance, but I don't and I don't want to face people I haven't seen in 15 years. I was fat in high school and I weigh at least 55 pounds more than I did in high school, so. . . yeah, that's not going to happen.
So now I'm depressed, and fat, which it totally not the point of this, so Hooray me! for getting back on my horse!
I have to go now.
thanks for listening.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I still suck. I can see the wagon, but my fat ass is not currently on it. I'm GOING to exercise tomorrow. Right after I take Sam to school. I promise.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

It's not going well. The Easter candy talks to me. Literally. "Eat me, Shannon. You KNOW you want to. Just one bite. . ." I'm trying to ignore it, but I'm failing miserably. I haven't exercised, I'm not eating right and I haven't had a bottle of water in 6 days. I suck. And someone left banana nut bread at my house. Which is always better with butter.
BUT--
Tomorrow is a new day and I've only gained back about 3 pounds so all is not lost.
I can do this. I will find the strength somewhere. I have to wear white scrubs in August. And a bathing suit in June. I have to lose weight. Plus, due to recent occurrences, I now have to divorce my husband so I'm thinking dating is going to be a whole lot easier if I'm skinny.
I'm disgusted with myself. and tired of the rain. Which has nothing to do with my weight loss efforts, it's just on my mind. And I have to go put the kids to bed.
Thanks for listening.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

So first a confession--I didn't exercise today. Booo, Shannon. I know I should have, but I didn't and I have no intentions of doing so right now. I did pretty well food wise today, I kept the day light in anticipation of my friend's Erin & Sean (not a couple--Sean is Erins' life coach/tenant/manslave) anyway they made dinner for us and I had suspicions that I would be tempted to splurge so I saved calories for it. At any rate, here's what I ate today:
cheerios, 1/2 banana & skim milk
pretzel chips
fruit & yogurt parfait
chicken parmesan with pasta and cheese--(although Joey was thoughtful enough to choose the less cheesy piece for me--thank you Joey!)
corn and carrots
1 1/2 pieces of bread--I finished Emma's
1/2 tater tot (thanks again Joey!)
1 bite of very yummy apple sour cream pie (that was Chris's)
2 glasses of wine (bad idea but it's done now)
water, water and more water.
OMG!! and the most delicious strawberry field greens salad with light raspberry viniagrette dressing
so it wasn't a terrible day
but I should have exercised. . .
tomorrow is another day
And completely unrelated--Erin showed me the most awesome bra and I'm going to buy one. It doesn't "make me feel like I'm being hugged like an angel" as Erin suggested, but it does make my jugs look damn good! And it's comfy.

Monday, March 30, 2009

total weight loss: 4 pounds

Off to a good start today:
58 minutes on the elliptical (very good job!!)
skipped breakfast --gotta work on this
vegetable beef soup for lunch--1 g of fat. 160 cal.
water only --40 oz so far

I'm in the Zone

So I've finally gotten motivated--old prom pictures and having to post current pictures of myself on facebook are surprisingly motivational.
I still don't have anyone who has stepped as my "life-coach" to support and encourage this endeavor, but no matter, I can fly solo on this one.
So here's the long term masterplan:
-lose 26 pounds by the last day of school (somewhere around 6/18/09)
-lose 36 pounds by the time we go to Myrtle Beach (7/25/09)
-lose 46 pounds by the time the kids start school (circa 9/25/09)
-lose 58 pounds by Halloween
-lose 66 pounds by Thanksgiving
-lose 80 pounds by Christmas

This is a 2 pounds a week goal and puts me at a weight of 148 pounds which is within my physician suggested range of 132 (fucking kidding me, right)-155 (that's more realistic)
At 5 feet, 8 inches I think 148 is reasonable. I figure I'll be wearing a size 6 or 8 at that weight. (I can wear a 10 or 12 at 165 lbs.)
I'll get there. It's going to take 9 months and a tremendous amount of self control, but I'll get there. It's no longer an option. It's just plain stupid to continue allowing my body size to impact me physically and emotionally. It's time for a change, it's time to take action.
Hopefully as I begin losing, people will begin noticing and telling me so because like most other people, compliments make me feel good about myself and will further encourage the mission. If not, fuck it, I'm still gonna lose it. Because I am tired of feeling this way. I won't bore you with the entire laundry list of things-I-hate-about-being-fat--I'm sure you could come up with most of them on your own.
So look out world, because Shannon is losing it!